God has been so good through this process of grieving and healing. There are still many days that I find it hard to breathe or function with out tears on the brim of my heart and eyes, but God has been so faithful. I am thankful for His goodness and reminding me that He is here. I still feel such a void, but He IS!!

The last week has been a struggle in getting things cleaned out of our basement. It has been a healing experience for me with many tears. One of the things that has been nice to see is the amount of letters and cards that I have given to my mom over the years. I think mom kept everyone of them. I clearly told her how special I thought she was and how I thanked God for her presence in my life daily. It was comforting to know that I did take the time to tell her that I was proud that she was my mom. It is a good reminder to tell others of your love for them. I also pray that I am the kind of mom that my children rise up and call blessed.

As I was going through the boxes of mom's stuff I found some fun treasures in the form of quilts. I am so excited that mom had several quilts half finished. I have some projects to do with my girls/kids in years to come. What fun for them to know that they are helping to finish a project that there grandma started. I will make sure that tradition is passed on, however I wish I would have payed a little better attention. I know some of the very basic patterns, so I guess I will start there. I think I have made about 6 quilts, of course with my mom standing over my shoulder so...now it will be time for me to forage my own path.

Off to bed,I have a lot to do tomorrow, swim lessons, figure out school for this next year, clean the house, prepare for a birthday party for Rachel. She will be four years old. What a blessing!!! Four years ago we didn't know if we would have four hours, let alone four days. We have been blessed even if the road is hard and we are weary and worn at times from this battle, God is here with us. We will celebrate life!! We will praise Him for He is good.