Today would have been my mother's 6oth birthday. It seems at times that a birthday is just another day with lots of hassles and busy work getting a party together and finding just the right present. However, once someone is gone... that all changes. The day is really a great day of reflection on who they were and what their lives meant. When the Bible says that our lives are but just a vapor, it really feels that way once someone has passed on to Heaven. The time here while seemingly endless is just-gone--that fast. Today I long for just one more day to talk to my mom, sit with her, to hug her and tell her how amazing she was. My heart misses her so terribly. Other than Christ, there never will be another that knows me and understands me or loves me the way my mother did. I am so thankful that I know she is with Our Heavenly Father, but God knows how much I miss her! It has only been 6 weeks since she left this world, and yet it seems like an eternity. When we were talking about it being mom's birthday today Nathan said, "I wish she was still here to celebrate. But she is dead, so I guess she is having a better party with Jesus. That's that." It was a little abrupt, but also so true. I know she is having a great time, so that is that. Although I have been on the verge of tears and sadness all week, just knowing that her birthday was coming up. She had an amazing life and the joy that she brought to all of us was incredible. I am thankful for memories and thankful for the hope that is mine through the Resurrection of Jesus.
Today as I reflect on my mom I am reminded of the goodness of God and His love for me. He IS!!! I am glad... and that is truly that.
